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Post by Bex on Oct 29, 2013 18:19:17 GMT
Hi all,
Some of you may already know but I had a 2 hour assessment on Monday and they've told me that I have Emotionally Unstable Personality/Borderline Personality Disorder as well as possible bipolar which is being looked into more, to go with my agoraphobia and anxiety.
I'm not really sure how I feel about it all and I don't want to trigger anyone with BPD so please don't read on if you may be triggered as some things I'm about to say may seem a bit hurtful.
Is there something wrong with my personality? As in me as a whole? I feel as though everything I thought I knew has kind of been destroyed a little bit as there's a disorder with my personality and not just an illness in my brain. I'm not sure if I'm really making sense so I'm sorry and I really don't mean to offend anyone, I just don't know anything about it and everything all feels a little bit too much. If someone could explain to me what it is I'd be more than grateful. I've tried looking it up but all I seem to find are symptoms but I want to know more about WHY this has happened.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 29, 2013 18:47:55 GMT
This is really, really common thinking for someone just diagnosed. I was exactly the same.
My diagnosis wasn't really explained very well, but my psychiatrist said that most people learn to process emotions and deal with emotional swings properly from their parents and positive childhood experiences. Because my childhood was chaotic and my parents were emotionally distant and didn't acknowledge my emotions, I didn't. And thus why my emotional stage and swings affects me so much and is more frequent/intense than people without an Emotionally Unstable Personality.
I'm not sure if that helps you at all. But feel free to talk to me if you need to. I'm not an expert on this diagnosis but I know EXACTLY how you feel.
<3 you xxx
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Post by lollipopz on Dec 9, 2013 20:04:24 GMT
Sorry this is late, I hope you've had time to come to terms with your diagnosis now.
I just try to think of it as a problem with, well, how I think and respond to people and situations. It's obviously far more complex, but I think I've found that to be the easiest way to think of it. Ellie x
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Post by Deleted on Dec 13, 2013 10:28:19 GMT
OH. MY. GOD!
How have I not seen this yet?! Clearly my phone doesn't show everything.
The way I look at BPD is there's just another personality lurking behind the scenes that I need to gain control over for my life to continue as it should. I have analysed my moods greatly and I know when I am about to have a 'switch' in mood, I tend to get irritated by anything small before hand, so when I realise that Callum being loud getting a cracker out of the packet, or being loud when eating or breathing too loud when eating I know it's time to try and keep hold of my happy mood for as long as possible, tell myself that he can't help being loud when he eats or tell him he's being loud and to hurry up and get the damned cracker from the packet!
Although sometimes my moods don't always have the irritated part in the middle and that's the bit I need to learn to control. Do you tend to wake up in a foul mood? If you ever need to chat I am always here! Xx
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