Post by jessisfindingherself on Feb 11, 2014 17:14:45 GMT
Hi,
I could really do with some advice but I dont know what to do anymore. I cant rember when ive not felt like this now and i just wish someone would tell me whats wrong
My mood changes frequently from fine, to depressed, alone, empty, anxious and suicidal sometimes the switch is over minutes, hours or days and all the feelings are so intense that I self harm, over eat or restrict food just to try and get away from the feelings. I am terrified of being abandoned and will do anything to avoid that. Little things that everyone else seems to brush off really upset me I feel like a 5 year old in and adult world and everything hurts so much :(My sense of self is all over that place I seem to endlessly be trying to find myself. I see things and get really scared people are going to hurt me. Everything always seems to be all or nothing. I was In CAMHS for 4 years and have now been with Adult Mental Health Services for about 2 months. I saw a psychiatrist today (different from the one i saw the first time) told him everything, needed him to say what the problem is I asked him if it was just me but he wouldn't give me a straight answer, I just want to know whats wrong! It was like him and the OT in the room knew something but wouldn't say it :/ I just want to know if there a problem or its all just my fault
Jess x
I could really do with some advice but I dont know what to do anymore. I cant rember when ive not felt like this now and i just wish someone would tell me whats wrong
My mood changes frequently from fine, to depressed, alone, empty, anxious and suicidal sometimes the switch is over minutes, hours or days and all the feelings are so intense that I self harm, over eat or restrict food just to try and get away from the feelings. I am terrified of being abandoned and will do anything to avoid that. Little things that everyone else seems to brush off really upset me I feel like a 5 year old in and adult world and everything hurts so much :(My sense of self is all over that place I seem to endlessly be trying to find myself. I see things and get really scared people are going to hurt me. Everything always seems to be all or nothing. I was In CAMHS for 4 years and have now been with Adult Mental Health Services for about 2 months. I saw a psychiatrist today (different from the one i saw the first time) told him everything, needed him to say what the problem is I asked him if it was just me but he wouldn't give me a straight answer, I just want to know whats wrong! It was like him and the OT in the room knew something but wouldn't say it :/ I just want to know if there a problem or its all just my fault Jess x
