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Post by Deleted on Jul 24, 2013 20:39:24 GMT
Anyone got any experience of this? I suspect I have at least the symptoms. It's to do with my face. Photos and videos of me that aren't edited and/or I don't have make on when they were taken make me sick with anxiety. Sometimes I want to claw my face off for being so fucking ugly. No matter how much someone tells me I'm not, I can't believe them. People think I'm attention-seeking, but I can't help it. I used to starve myself and make myself vomit for years. I think sometimes I did it because it was the only thing about my body I could control.
Sorry, I'm rambling lol.
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Post by paigewoodcock on Jul 27, 2013 8:53:54 GMT
I feel the same way! its horrible just wanting to cry for hours about it :/
I dunno if this has any relavance but I also get this horrible thing when I get a bit of pain in any part of my body; I want to cut my self open a scratch all the pain out, that sounds weird as hell I know :/
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Post by xxxxxxx on Aug 2, 2013 17:18:33 GMT
I feel very similarly - but mine goes between feeling quite confident, to incredibly unconfident. But I think that's part of my disorder in general (BPD).
I think a lot of it comes from being bullied at school. I wore my hair up for years at school, then one day I wore it down. One boy in my science actually *thanked* me, because it meant he didn't have to look at my face. Comments like that really stick with you, I guess.
When I tell my friends things like that, they're really shocked.
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Post by Toni-Louise on Aug 2, 2013 17:35:38 GMT
I know what you mean about bullying,I left school years ago and I am still petrified of getting spots (people used to ask to play dot to dot on my face)if I have a spot I think everyone is looking at it,it also wasnt great having glasses (I don't hate wearing glasses so much now, it was worse in school coz people seemed to find it fun to knock them off my face) and hate leaving the house if I hven't washed my hair that morning...I am getting a bit better about it before I wouldn't leave the house at all but now I just feel even worse about my appearance which I hate mainly because I am (purely because I get wrong for saying the other word) Overweight.I can't stand looking at pictures of myself anymore my pictures from my graduation came through the door and I just wanted to cry.
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Post by mollydoublybarrely on Aug 6, 2013 18:14:19 GMT
I feel very similarly - but mine goes between feeling quite confident, to incredibly unconfident. But I think that's part of my disorder in general (BPD). I think a lot of it comes from being bullied at school. I wore my hair up for years at school, then one day I wore it down. One boy in my science actually *thanked* me, because it meant he didn't have to look at my face. Comments like that really stick with you, I guess. When I tell my friends things like that, they're really shocked. I am the same, i swing between feeling great and feeling really fat and ugly. My husband says i look incredibly thin, but when i look in the mirror (even on a "feeling great" day) i just see huge thighs and wobbly tummy!
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Post by Rebecca92 on Aug 7, 2013 12:25:07 GMT
I have this to an extent due to my eating disorder but I've had a distorted view of my body all of my life.
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