Post by Gwen123 on Nov 11, 2013 7:13:31 GMT
At school I never drank much, since I drove to school and before that I wasn't prepared to go to those lengths. I never went to many parties and barely saw my friends any more so I had no reason to drink to fit in. Now I'm at uni, I have my own money, I'm old enough to buy alcohol and I'm in social situations a lot more. I've already had a panic attack in a lecture and my friends, who mostly now know about my social anxiety, have noticed how quiet I am in groups, sometimes unable to speak.
The first time I got really drunk at uni was after a bad night with a couple of friends who then didn't know about my MH issues and one of them was doing mind tricks, which made me feel rubbish, because I worried so much about what it all meant and if I overreacted in trying to get them to stop. I got drunk so I could tell one of them about it and I did, before nearly passing out on his bed. After that, I started drinking more frequently to cope with social situations. My friends thought it was funny and they seemed to like me drunk, then one of them started worrying about how it might affect my academic ability and another pointed out that drinking to cope with social situations was a bad idea, but I'm not getting any help from the NHS or student support so I don't know what to do. It helps, and makes me feel better. I've never been hungover or puked, but I have made some bad decisions that I've later regretted. It upsets me that I'm funnier drunk and people prefer me that way but still tell me to not get drunk. I figured that maybe if I socialised more when drunk I'd have the confidence to do it sober, since I'd already done it once before, but now I kinda want to drink more, but I know that's not good and it's going to end badly if I carry on like this. Other people drink and no one cares, so how much is too much? I'm kinda a lightweight, and I often don't eat if I know I'm going to want to be drunk when I'm going out because then I can get drunk quicker and on less. I'm not an alcoholic, I managed to not drink while my friend was here for the weekend and when I had work to do (though both times I wanted to drink), I just want to find a way to be able to talk to people without being tipsy/drunk.
The first time I got really drunk at uni was after a bad night with a couple of friends who then didn't know about my MH issues and one of them was doing mind tricks, which made me feel rubbish, because I worried so much about what it all meant and if I overreacted in trying to get them to stop. I got drunk so I could tell one of them about it and I did, before nearly passing out on his bed. After that, I started drinking more frequently to cope with social situations. My friends thought it was funny and they seemed to like me drunk, then one of them started worrying about how it might affect my academic ability and another pointed out that drinking to cope with social situations was a bad idea, but I'm not getting any help from the NHS or student support so I don't know what to do. It helps, and makes me feel better. I've never been hungover or puked, but I have made some bad decisions that I've later regretted. It upsets me that I'm funnier drunk and people prefer me that way but still tell me to not get drunk. I figured that maybe if I socialised more when drunk I'd have the confidence to do it sober, since I'd already done it once before, but now I kinda want to drink more, but I know that's not good and it's going to end badly if I carry on like this. Other people drink and no one cares, so how much is too much? I'm kinda a lightweight, and I often don't eat if I know I'm going to want to be drunk when I'm going out because then I can get drunk quicker and on less. I'm not an alcoholic, I managed to not drink while my friend was here for the weekend and when I had work to do (though both times I wanted to drink), I just want to find a way to be able to talk to people without being tipsy/drunk.