Post by Ollie on Sept 19, 2013 8:26:50 GMT
Hi there,
I'll start by putting a *trigger warning* as some of this content talks about self harm and suicide.
I'm Ollie, I'm 23 years old and I live in Derby. My labels are Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, Depression and Anxiety. I have also been told that I have "obsessive tendencies" and when my mental health is in a bad state I also suffer with Self harm, visual and auditory hallucinations and paranoid and delusional thoughts.
My ill mental health I think has been around for many years however it didnt seem to surface or be diagnosed until 2 years ago. It look a long time for doctors to take me seriously and It wasn't until I was forced to voluntarily admit myself to the local psychiatic unit.
The last two years have been very up and down. I've been passed from pillar to post and I have never received enough help and support from the NHS. After my first stint in the psychiatric unit I was determined to fight my demons. I wasn't going to become my label and it appeared that I would have to take recovering into my own hands as the NHS didnt seem to be helping at all.
It took time there was good periods which were well, great! And then there were the bad times full of self harm, overdoses, hallucinations and paranoid thoughts. There were also some really dark times where I ended up in A & E three or four times within the space of one week after trying to commit suicide. During this time I worked really really hard on my recovery and even now I just look at these bad times as "blips" and not as backwards steps.
However earlier this year came the darkest time of them all, As mentioned above things have been really bad and I have attempted suicide more times than I can count. Earlier this year however things became more unbearable than ever and I took a large overdose of around 300 mixed pills including my regular medication, paracetamol, anti biotics and many other different types. My partner found me and rang an ambulance. She said she has never seen anybody picked up by an ambulance and taken though A&E so quickly. Very soon after taking the overdose my body was shutting down and fast. I was taken straight into intensive care where I was placed in a medically induced coma for three days. Shortly after I was admitted to the hospital my parents (who live in Stoke on Trent) were phoned and told they needed to come to the hospital straight away and when they arrived them and my partner were told that it doesnt look good and that there was a very big chance I could die. Luckily I'm still here. It scared the life out of me and took me a long time after to recover. This though was the point where I said enough is enough and I was more determined than ever to fight my demons!
So the last couple of years has been a roller coaster ride and I couldn't have got though any of it without the support from my family and my fiancée. I have now started to set up a Derby based project called the Derby Mental Health Society which is going to offer help and support to people who suffer from mental illness. I will post more about this later on though.
So this is just a little bit of information about me. Over the comping weeks I hope to write about my story and my experiences in greater detail.
I look forward to meeting and chatting with you all!
Ollie
I'll start by putting a *trigger warning* as some of this content talks about self harm and suicide.
I'm Ollie, I'm 23 years old and I live in Derby. My labels are Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, Depression and Anxiety. I have also been told that I have "obsessive tendencies" and when my mental health is in a bad state I also suffer with Self harm, visual and auditory hallucinations and paranoid and delusional thoughts.
My ill mental health I think has been around for many years however it didnt seem to surface or be diagnosed until 2 years ago. It look a long time for doctors to take me seriously and It wasn't until I was forced to voluntarily admit myself to the local psychiatic unit.
The last two years have been very up and down. I've been passed from pillar to post and I have never received enough help and support from the NHS. After my first stint in the psychiatric unit I was determined to fight my demons. I wasn't going to become my label and it appeared that I would have to take recovering into my own hands as the NHS didnt seem to be helping at all.
It took time there was good periods which were well, great! And then there were the bad times full of self harm, overdoses, hallucinations and paranoid thoughts. There were also some really dark times where I ended up in A & E three or four times within the space of one week after trying to commit suicide. During this time I worked really really hard on my recovery and even now I just look at these bad times as "blips" and not as backwards steps.
However earlier this year came the darkest time of them all, As mentioned above things have been really bad and I have attempted suicide more times than I can count. Earlier this year however things became more unbearable than ever and I took a large overdose of around 300 mixed pills including my regular medication, paracetamol, anti biotics and many other different types. My partner found me and rang an ambulance. She said she has never seen anybody picked up by an ambulance and taken though A&E so quickly. Very soon after taking the overdose my body was shutting down and fast. I was taken straight into intensive care where I was placed in a medically induced coma for three days. Shortly after I was admitted to the hospital my parents (who live in Stoke on Trent) were phoned and told they needed to come to the hospital straight away and when they arrived them and my partner were told that it doesnt look good and that there was a very big chance I could die. Luckily I'm still here. It scared the life out of me and took me a long time after to recover. This though was the point where I said enough is enough and I was more determined than ever to fight my demons!
So the last couple of years has been a roller coaster ride and I couldn't have got though any of it without the support from my family and my fiancée. I have now started to set up a Derby based project called the Derby Mental Health Society which is going to offer help and support to people who suffer from mental illness. I will post more about this later on though.
So this is just a little bit of information about me. Over the comping weeks I hope to write about my story and my experiences in greater detail.
I look forward to meeting and chatting with you all!
Ollie