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Jul 25, 2013 21:50:09 GMT
Post by Paul on Jul 25, 2013 21:50:09 GMT
Hi.....'Sits staring at the screen wondering how to start'........Hi, I've been diagnosed with depression since I was 21 and I'm 40 now even though I still feel like I'm 25, most of the time. I've been through most anti depressants in that time, tried counselling, CBT had 2 psychiatrists, various neurological tests and countless doctors with their own interpretation of my condition from 'low mood' which I hate, 'unipolar disorder', 'chronically severe depression' and a few doctors have tried to persuade me that I have bi-polar (but where are the highs ?) . I've experienced rage, anger, crying, voices, agoraphobia, anxiety, paranoia, feeling separated from everyone around me as if I'm invisible, suicidal thoughts, panic attacks, conspiracy thoughts, thinking people are out to get me and are watching me........whoaaaa !!! I've been on Venlafaxine for a long time now after refusing to be put on lithium, It keeps me steady and I'm able to work which is good, but I would like to be whoever I really am.
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Jul 26, 2013 8:46:06 GMT
Post by Bex on Jul 26, 2013 8:46:06 GMT
Hi Paul,
Welcome to the forum!
What a great introduction, it seems as though you have been through a lot yet you've still got the positivity to say 'I would like to be whoever I really am'. I get that feeling a lot and it was one of the reasons I came off of medication, although that in itself was one of the hardest things I've done in my life. Venlafaxine is what I was on and it did help, more than any of the other tons of things they tried me on before settling.
I hope that you enjoy your time with us and that we can be of some help, even if it is just a friendly chinwag now and again.
See you around the boards!
Bex
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Jul 26, 2013 10:17:12 GMT
Post by Paul on Jul 26, 2013 10:17:12 GMT
Thanx Bex, Thank you for being part of 'Diarys of a broken mind' It was such an inspirational programme and the website is awesome. You're very brave being off the meds, I've tried a couple times and would love to try again, but fear the consequences after being on them soooo long this time round. Keep up the great work ! Paul
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