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Post by bobak on Aug 3, 2013 18:39:40 GMT
Hey Keeley. Yup I confess I do love em. Nice to meet you.
Tough day today, trying to explain to my friends why I can't go for a curry with them. I made it to the pub, just. Almost had a panic attack, heading closer to town for a curry was just too far... Not sure they understood. Feels like they thought I just didn't wanna spend time with them or I'm grumpy. What they don't realise is, I'd like nothing more but I'm not calling the shots at the moment.
Sorry, mini unload
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Post by Deleted on Aug 3, 2013 18:50:21 GMT
Nice to meet you too and you're welcome to rant whenever you need to bob! I completely understand how you feel thats how my friends were when I first had agoraphobia! But well done you for making it to the pub! And ALMOST having a panic attack! That's excellent. You could have been me and had one in the middle of the job centre and having everyone staring at you lie you've got 2 heads!!
So what if you couldn't make it for the curry you made it to the pub and without a panic attack that's something to be proud of!!
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Post by bobak on Aug 3, 2013 18:56:57 GMT
Lol thanks I think. It's dumb though, I used to do anything I wanted anytime. Even last week I would of gone for a curry. But I guess there's ups and downs.jobcentre is horrible. I go every fortnight and I feel like an ant under a microscope. Sure Valium helps but still hate it.
Can't help wondering when will it all be over, and I can be normal again?
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Post by Deleted on Aug 3, 2013 19:28:19 GMT
You will be!! Have you spoken to your doctor about CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) ? It's incredibly helpful, it got me going out on my own again which is something I struggled with for about 4 years I had to have my 'safe person' with me everywhere I went!
Don't beat yourself up over the condition and certainly don't force yourself to do anything you have to take baby steps so your brain an get used to it again. x
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Post by bobak on Aug 3, 2013 19:30:31 GMT
I've been going to a counsellor for about 9 months now. But not full on CBT. Problem is when she tries to do CBT, I tend to avoid a lot of the participation. Trying though
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Post by Deleted on Aug 3, 2013 19:37:06 GMT
That's very normal it may be your brains way of saying, not yet! Ask your counsellor if she's able to do it in a subtle way? Have you looked on our coping methods board? Might be some useful stuff there for you. If not I have some bits on the laptop I can send over to you if you wanted some? I have found many people find it reassuring after reading about what the causes your brain to react in such ways and has aided recovery.
But of course it's not for everyone! x
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Post by bobak on Aug 5, 2013 21:28:42 GMT
couldn't resist this one:
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2013 6:16:26 GMT
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWH LOOK AT THE LITTLE KITTY!
I found mine asleep in my bra this morning >.<
This picture makes me want cuddles now *Goes cat searching*
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Post by emma on Aug 13, 2013 13:17:50 GMT
Nice to meet you too and you're welcome to rant whenever you need to bob! I completely understand how you feel thats how my friends were when I first had agoraphobia! But well done you for making it to the pub! And ALMOST having a panic attack! That's excellent. You could have been me and had one in the middle of the job centre and having everyone staring at you lie you've got 2 heads!! So what if you couldn't make it for the curry you made it to the pub and without a panic attack that's something to be proud of!! hey keeley I can so relate to you ive had agoraphobia for 5 years and I too have suffered the humiliating panic attack in the middle of the job centre LOL its horrible. Also hi Bob
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Post by bobak on Aug 13, 2013 14:10:05 GMT
Hi Emma. Yeah to be fair though, the Jobcentre isn't the friendliest place in the world. I am so pumped with Valium everytime I go, hence I've been able to do it so far. I often wonder what they think when I'm sat in front of them with a stupid grin on my face and dopey eyes but I find the more transparent and honest I am, the more comfortable people are with me and I am with them, so I just come out and tell them how hard it is to get there and how drugged up I have to be. So far they've started being much nicer to me since I told them. Doesn't fix anything but makes it slightly easier.
I just got offered quite a prestigious job on Friday. I was honest with the guy about my disorder and he actually loved that I told him. Said it was rare to meet anyone so honest and he admired me for it... Sadly it meant I didn't get the job, but I don't think I could of done it anyway yet.
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Post by aimeecatherine on Aug 17, 2013 17:36:29 GMT
Hey all, still new to this place but just reading about the social side of things and not being able to go out has helped me feel less alone already. I've got one friend who is understanding about it if I don't go out but it's cost me some friendships ..... Sad times
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Post by bobak on Aug 17, 2013 19:33:27 GMT
Hi. Yep it puts a strain on relationships but think of it as your indirect way of weeding out those worth calling friends and those who aren't. If they won't take the time to understand and support you then they're not gonna have your back in the long run... Not worth having as friends. Glad to hear you feel a bit more comfortable though, trust me, there's loads of us out there. Maybe out there is a poor choice of words but you know what I mean. If it helps to chat, wanna talk about what's up, feel free
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Post by bobak on Aug 19, 2013 17:56:20 GMT
Not sure who's interested but for the sake of being chatty and open... I went to the Doctors on Friday. She's really nice. Told her the Anti-Depressants weren't working... I'm not depressed, I'm anxious. So i'm not coming off of them (Mirtazapine) slowly and in a month I should be free of them entirely. So far I feel a bit like cr*p, but also feel a bit clearer which is nice. She's got a new drug on the market for my IBS and given me a CBT wellbeing phone number to call and organise some sessions. Not sure if this is on the up, but feels positive so thought i'd report back Plus she gave me a load of Valium and some other bits on prescription so apparently my once a fortnight usage doesnt constitute an addiction so that's good.
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Post by aimeecatherine on Aug 23, 2013 19:38:37 GMT
glad to hear things are in a positive direction for you Bobak
I just moved house and don't know a single person here. whole new area 3 hours from everyone and everything I know. I have taken myself off some medication as it wasn't doing anything and only had a short term supply anyway so not enough to have got in my system.
wish I had some tips on how to sleep through the night for myself. last night horrid dreams woke me up. dreamed I was shot in the neck and as I died I woke up.....not cool. tonight i'm putting classical music on to sleep to!
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